That's why I need to sort out all of this before I'm ready.
Honestly, if I end up with Thomas, I probably won't be able to enjoy my long-held dream of watching BL unfold around me.
However, if I return to the knight order and keep meeting with new people, I'll just end up hurting someone else again, won't I?
If that's the case, then I have to give that up too.
Even though I've managed to build a great friendship with Orinus, I'm the only one who wants to preserve it as just that—a friendship.
Orinus seems to want to pursue romance with me again, and I know that's incredibly convenient of me, but I still want to write this letter and apologize to him face to face!
Rafayel wrote in the letter that he had something important to talk about and asked Orinus to let him know a day that would be convenient to meet.
I don't even know if he'll write back after this, he thought to himself as he sealed the letter.
