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I didn't want to be distracted as I wasn't done with school. Personally I hate talking a lot.. unnecessarily at least. I avoid anyone or situation that would make me talk much, that's why I'm not a fan of teaching and apparently the school I attended was an educational school 🏫. So I had no choice but to teach or I fail🥲. Glad I crossed that bridge😁 cause I would literally shake when talking to a crowd, be it adults or kids. Yeah, I'm that shyyyy🥴.
Basically, Life went on as usual😌. I decided to ignore Jewel's shenanigans and just focus on me..but it's hard I'll tell you. I kept stalking their Facebook, every move he made was suspicious. I slowly saw myself loosing trust in him. And what's Love without Trust?💔. I had options though, but no one knew me the way he did. Nobody gets me like he does. He understands things about me even before I say anything and I felt so comfortable with him..I got too comfortable if you ask me cause it feels like my heart stops beating when I think about leaving him. I fucking hate the way I Love🤦. I shoulda left when I saw things the very first time, but I stayed hoping and thinking things would change😅.
2021, September....
I was doing the dishes and playing music 🎶 with my Gionee f6 android phone, I didn't know I kept my phone 📱 in a place where water 💦 touched it...and it stopped working. Just like that!! It didn't stop working when my Dad hit me countless times on the hand and I held the phone 🤳 in my hand, nothing happened to it. Just water...damn🥲. They told me the motherboard was ruined. I quickly got another one though...with my money 💰 too. But Jewel was the one who got it for me as I knew nothing about phones. And I was still with him too . I have no idea where he got it and I didn't care cause I just wanted a phone 📱 before my Dad would find out I didn't have one.
It went great after a while before something happened. The phone he got was not a normal phone ..it was a stolen phone. So the police tracked it to where I was and arrested me. They asked me to take me to his house which I did and called him to come out, he was smart, so he noticed something was off. One of them pretended to be asking him something hoping to catch him but he was quick as he ran...they couldn't catch him. I was angry and sorta proud cause 2 policemen couldn't catch one person😅. I was handcuffed by the way so I couldn't bolt ⚡ too. So they took me to another state, called my parents which killed me cause we didn't have much money 💰. I was locked in a fucking cell for 5 days 🤮🤮!!!!
Jewel was caught about 2 days after I got there, not really caught...more like he turned himself in despite everyone including his mom telling him not to. But!!! Before he came, I had already made friends with the guys in the other cell as I was the first girl who arrived in that nasty place 🤢 . He was beaten as they would do anyone that came in new. He was with 2 other guys involved in the phone case. And they beat hell outta them..it pleased me😈. Not too much cause I still didn't want to see him suffer😢. It was hell in there for me cause my period came out the day before I left and I...I...I didn't bathe 🚿. !!! Brush 🪥!!! Or eat 🍚 properly 🤮🤢😭😓. FOR FIVE FUCKING DAYS!!!!!?
All I can say is the Nigerian police need to do better. They knew I wasn't a thief. We were all innocent. They just needed money 💰. Nothing else. My IPO even told me to incriminate Jewel and his guys so I could go free🙄, I didn't do that stupid shit cause I knew I wouldn't go free at all and I would put them in more mess, I hated this mess already so I refused. Stupid ass man from Bayelsa🖕🖕🖕. Not just him but the whole of the police fucking force in Bayelsa 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🖕 🤬. When I came out first, I made sure to curse all of em with my menstrual blood👿. I know how strong that can be so I did it. Including the fucking woman whose phone got stolen...yes...the woman came and lied more cause the police told her to. Said she saw my face and Jewels face...I have never seen that fucking Bitch in my life. All for Money 💰 😔. She apologized to me before I left as if to say she didn't have a choice. Bitch🖕.
I know I took a bath 🚿 5 times that night I returned😌. I felt so good and had a new meaning of Life. I mean...damn..there are people serving life in prison...God!!! How do they cope?! 😢
I didn't know when Jewel came out but his uncle in Europe paid angrily though. He hates the police as much as I do🤬. Yep...we still dated, made us even stronger cause not a lot of guys would turn thierselves in for a girl. I mean, it was a really hard decision and I was shocked to see him there cause I know they could never catch him unless he wanted them to. Was pretty sweet though🥰🥰
Soooooo..... 2022 January, February, March, April, May...😔
My Dad lost his Mom recently...should be around January..she was to be buried in the month of May. It was indeed a sad day but I didn't cry till she was being put in the ground. I mean...reality hit me properly cause I realized I wouldn't see her ever again😭. She was a Great woman!! You'd hardly know she was a grandmother cause of how vibrant she was😌. I miss her. (Still do). She stresses us sometimes but she loves her grandchildren more than anything that's for sure 😊. After her burial was done, which my ex-boyfriend 'Precious' fucking attended by the way🙄 but I was too depressed to care. Tragedy struck my family again. This time...it literally broke us💔🤦.
You see my Grandpa married 3 wives. Two are dead and the only wife that remained was my Dad's mother. The first wife gave birth to two sons, the second gave birth to one son and third who happens to be my Grandma gave birth to nine boys and a girl...so ten damn kids!!! I know...😅, Great woman for a reason🫡. But we all got along with each other...there's no family like ours and we were always there for each other. Yes, there were fights here and there, but that's normal. Well.....what's not normal is my Mom quarrelling with everyone. Yes!! Everyone!!! The wives and husbands too. But she's lucky she married a peaceful man like my Dad so he makes her apologize where necessary.
Back to the point 👉.... After my Grandma's burial, about few days later 29th of May💔...My uncle died. Not just any uncle. My pastor, My uncle and a Father😔. This happened before I travelled though, and it's what led to my travelling cause I was depressed ASF💔😔. I was recovering from sickness when he got sick one night, vomiting 🤮 blood and pooping blood. I didn't hear of it till the next day cause I did not step a foot outside. Apart from mornings where I would drop my brother in school and go back home. Honestly... I wasn't scared cause he's a strong man and he had been in worse situations. I know when his house caught on fire 🔥, I was inside when I heard screaming and saw fire...I saw my cousin 'Faith' jump out, then I saw him jump in as if to save someone and it was his first son. I saw the son jump out but I didn't see him. I cried like a baby thinking he was gone...then I saw someone else jump after him dragging him by the shoulder cause he couldn't walk...his legs were burning badly. They took him to the hospital 🏥 immediately. He didn't walk for months, it was a sad thing to see or imagine right now. I was glad he was alive though but I hated the suffering.
So his sickness lasted for 4 days before he died on a Sunday💔💔😭. Damn.
I still remember that day and get goosebumps. I was done praying for him and was listening to a song with my on the radio with my earphones 🎧 when my mom opened the door and said something I didn't hear at first then I had to remove the earphones 🎧 to hear properly..."Pastor don die" She said in my native language. I think I heard this ring in my ear 👂..just a ring, nothing else. I tried putting on my shorts 🩳 and I kept slipping cause of how shaky I got. I finally put it on and ran out...I saw people gathering and I still did not believe it. I went to his house...his parlour and saw people crying 😭 and I swear I cried in a way I didn't know I could 😢. It felt like God betrayed me even more😔. I looked at Faith' who was in disbelief 🫢...her Senior sister fainted...her mom couldn't talk...I got even more sick after that. I begged God to heal him and He didn't 😔...He took him away from us instead.
It created this anger and distrust within us as a family. I knew we were never gonna be the same ever again💔.
~19th October 2022~
I left my state to another, not for anything but to keep me from going insane. Literally. My mom's mother got sick and they brought her to our house!! How is our house a hospital 🏥?!?!?!?! So you know...old people and their things. It was weird and hard for me cause she was using my bathroom, so I made sure to wash it everyday...yep..every fucking day! She literally messes it up more than ten times a day...now I get it, but I wasn't prepared for that also. My mom would give her the food meant for me which made me hungry and angry, I lacked nutrition and money too. So basically, the person's that eat are just my little brother and my grandma 🥲. I would eat though, but late in the afternoon. My mom eats, sometimes. But she also got thinner and that annoyed me. Coupled with the stress my parents put me through.
I was so fucking Depressed 😔...like I didn't talk to anyone, I don't even go out. I didn't know what to do with my life. Worse part?? I moved away from God..I got angry with everyone including Him. My parents would make me so mad even when I don't do anything... especially when I don't do anything. And I'm not talking about house chores and shit cause I do that, but I'm not healthy all the time. I don't get sick a lot but I do have menstrual cramps and they hurt like hell and would require me to just be still, no stress. But nooo...they saw it as laziness, even my mom who happens to be a woman♀️!! They've been driving me insane ever since!! I only sleep at nights , I dare not sleep even when it's raining or they say I'm lazy and do nothing to help. I better not be on my phone too much too and it's the only escape I get from my fucking life. I engage in a simulation game "Sims Mobile" it's so satisfying and helped me through tough times.
Get this👉.. most times she would ask me to download movies for her and considering the fact that I barely have data, I make use of a night plan that starts by 11pm amd ends 6am. So I'm up from 11 to 3 or 4 sometimes downloading movies for her🙄. Then when I finally head to bed, and wake up 7am, it's war, she curses me out saying I'm lazy and all I know is to sleep and eat. Like it's not even fully day break man!! She always,... always nags..not just to me, to my Dad also. Nothing is good for her and she never admits to her mistakes instead she finds someone or something to blame for her shortcomings🤦. I know the stress of her mom staying with us is there too, but this started way before her mom came to stay with us. I don't think they had a good relationship with each other and I didn't ask, not cause I don't care but because I know my mom won't tell me anything so I don't bother 🤷. I'll talk about my Mom soon though. Fucking wrecked me but I thankGod for His help🥰. And my Dad took..he also helped especially when he knows she's at fault and I had every right to spazz out.
Everything was just upsidedown at that moment and I knew I needed a break before I do something harmful to myself. So I took a sort of vacation to my friend's place. Her name is 'Esther' butttt... I call her by her native name☺️. I borrowed money too to travel...I didn't think too much about it as I left the next day after getting the money. I told my parents I got a job somewhere around and it was far from home so I had to stay with a friend who stays close to where I worked. I didn't care if they believed or not, I was still gonna leave. And I did.😌