She immediately turned around her hand reaching her other sleeve ready to pull a knife when her brain registered the voice.
Dad? Is that you? What are you doing here?
No wait more importantly how did you know?
Hahahaha.... My dear child you will never cease to amuse me that guilty face when you realized you got caught is truly priceless.
What i'm doing here well my sweet little child i would love to ask you the same question.
What in the world do you think you are doing here jumping through buildings like a suicidal monkey. If not for his extensive warnings that if I interfere you and i both would die you can rest assured that i would stop you much sooner.
Ellionore made a surrendered face. She got caught and she knew no words but the truth would save her for that man.
So now that the questions on both parties flyied do you care for a drink or you want to solve our problems here?
Here is good... there's nowhere to go right now anyways... Even though she knew she got caught she couldn't help but make a sad face, her voice suddenly losing its luster.
Ok whatever suits your fancy. So whenever you are ready i'm all ears.
Well if you are here you already know i'm here because i jumped through the buildings to reach the library and now i was heading home.
Oh i understand that part, I just don't know the why.
Well you wouldn't understand even if i told you.
Well try me we will sit here either until i have no more questions or until you make me too mad to have a presence of mind to ask more.
He is mad alright... Well i have nowhere to run anyways and i'm probably going to get punished for life so i might as well.
Well dad while you were busy going on adventures killing monsters and being the hero of the night for mom i was busy getting my guts pierced and left for dead for a little more than two hours.
In that time i thought about a lot of stuff both good and bad but mostly what i thought about was how useless i was, the fact im alive is thanks to two self sacrificing pure saint individuals who protected me as if i was their daughter so when i witnessed the death of one of them right in front of my eyes and learned about the other in that bed something broken inside me.
I ... I was done depending on others it ... it... it hurts too much seeing them gone just because of you ... sniff i know you will say its not my fault and i don't care because its a pretty lie just so i can feel better, at ease so no it was my fault sniff .... and .... and i will correct it .... even if you NO even if everyone tries to stop me i'm done being a little child.
I was done when i had to fight to die because dad i wanted to die i was so desperate to give up to just embrace emptiness because the alternative was so much worse. But i survived for hours upon hours for what? to go back to normal pff. Does this seem normal to you living in a hospital our family broken apart our heads hidden below a table so we don't get hunted by some gang! no this isn't normal it's insanity itself.
I... I can't sleep knowing you are out there risking your life to bring everything back to normal while i sit here doing nothing. Im hurt too im desperate too i became that way and now i know no different, i... i gave up trying to think normally toys and shows became so much darker and you know what I don't regret it. I almost died a couple of times but also i grew stronger quicker when something happens i no longer think dammit someone help now i think how to get away from it.
When a problem arises i don't immediately think to ask for help but i try to solve it to work around it and you know what that's INFINITELY more fun than depending on others all the time. So yeah i'm not sorry so go ahead and punish me i don't care .... sniff ... i just wish ... sniff... you could understand me thats all sniff... but its ok I... I... can do it alone.... yea... i can... i must.... sniff..
She fell to her knees unable to stop crying. Why i thought i changed that i became stronger why...
Her father didn't talk at all instead he quietly went to her and hugged her.
Shhh be quiet now i understand you are strong far stronger than me don't worry i won't punish you i will help you i promise.
Liar!!!! you say that just so i calm down you evil devil of a parent!!!
Shh calm down everything is ok down worry im here. You can cry all you want. Everything is ok just relax and take deep breaths... inhale... exhale.
She did so trying to calm down she cried a lot, talked a lot but most importantly hugged her father a whole lot more. Until her consciousness started drifting away and all the tiredness of the day started reappearing on her small battered body. So she fell asleep still crying in her fathers embrace.
And for the first time after 2 months she didn't wake up because of a nightmare, in fact she didn't even dream she just woke up even more tired than yesterday.
Good morning Ellionore.
Dr. Zery talked with a mix of professional and caring voice. Today you are going to learn that in the human body everything is possible and in fact right about now you are about to feel how a overabused body feels after walking up. For your information i'm expecting a whole essay when you are able to walk up, from now on since you are quite the adult it's time for you to learn what every day feels after you pass the forties.
And with that a whole new chapter of pain started. I guess that essay is going to be a very big and informational one.