When I came about I was on the back of an eagle. My body felt as if it had broken to bits, and my heart was burning and hurting. It soon struck me what had happened and I turned my neck to see if they were all there. Dwalin was on an eagle a little behind me. The others were ahead small specks on huge eagles.
Where was Thorin. I craned my neck a little more and saw an eagle an empty one but it held something in its talons, I squinted to see who it was.
Thorin. It was Thorin. It felt like someone was pouring molten steel in my stomach. The pain came like tidal wave that promised to destroy everything in its path. The banks broke, I sobbed, wailed howled till I had no more voice left. I cried like I had never cried before. I cried till I went numb, there were no more tears left and the pain had seeped into my heart and become a constant, I could not feel anything anymore, just the pain where my heart used to be. He was dead. I blacked out again.
The eagles we spiraling into wide circles when my eyes opened, I think they had found a spot to land, the circles were becoming smaller and I could feel them going lower and lower. I didn't move, it doesn't matter anymore. He is dead.
The eagles landed on a big rock jutting up high. I slid down and sat where I had landed, my arms wrapped around my knees. I seemed like an out of body experience, where you can see everything that's going on around you but you can feel nothing. No happiness, anger, sadness, frustration.... nothing.... just the heavy throb of pain where your heart once was. I saw him laying on the rock and Gandalf sitting beside him
I saw him put a vial to his mouth and I saw him open his eyes
I saw him looking at me as soon as he opened his eyes and heard him ask for Bilbo
I saw him hug Bilbo
I saw him walking towards me
I saw the others behind him
I saw him stop when he reached me and give out his hand
I didn't move
I didn't care
It did not matter
I was dead. The only thing alive was the pain where my heart used to be....