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Chapter 14 - What the World Becomes When It Starts Dreaming in Your Mouth

The feed didn't call it recursion.

 

They called it affective resonance.

 

They called it disordered bonding

architecture.

 

They called it memetic erotics.

 

But Cam knew what it was.

 

She saw it in the glassy stare of a

customs officer who inhaled when she walked past, then blinked as if waking

from something he never chose.

 

She saw it in the way two lovers

touched in a park, mimicking gestures from a room no camera had ever recorded.

 

She saw it when a stranger mouthed

Selene's name before speaking their own.

 

Recursion hadn't

gone viral.

 

It had gone

biological.

Selene didn't sleep anymore.

 

Not fully.

 

Her body rested.

 

But her breath never dropped below

alert-state.

 

Cam watched her some nights when the

wind against the Drift wall cut low enough to pretend they weren't still moving

and counted the seconds between exhales.

 

They never stabilized.

 

Cam asked her once, "What does it feel

like now?"

 

Selene had answered: "Like remembering

someone else's orgasm in the wrong language."

 

Cam never asked again.

They made contact with three other

loop-survivors by week eight.

 

None from their facility.

 

Different cities.

 

Different incidents.

 

Different memories.

 

Same symptoms:

Residual erotic triggering during unrelated intimacy

Involuntary vocal pattern shifts

Dream feedback in partners not exposed

Sub-threshold breath synchrony in shared space

 

Cam logged it all.

 

Not for the record.

 

For the reckoning.

Selene

 

She didn't fear what they were

becoming.

 

She feared how easy it was.

 

How quickly new touch began to echo

old breath.

 

How desire, once raw and personal, now

felt archived.

 

Cam kissed her once just once after a

memory wave hit a group shelter. Not for comfort. Not even for grounding.

 

Just to feel origin.

 

Selene had pulled away gently.

 

Said, "We can't trace ourselves like

that anymore."

 

Cam nodded.

 

Didn't speak.

 

But her eyes said everything Selene

didn't want to hear:

 

"Then what's left of

us?"

They reached the river city on day

ninety-four.

 

Crowded. Loud. Maskless but watched.

 

Surveillance had shifted no longer

about identity. Now it measured consent drift.

People flagged not for crimes, but for

emotional recursion overlaps that couldn't be explained by linear

relationships.

 

The government called it affective instability.

 

The market called it neurointimacy.

 

The underground called it loop-drip.

 

Everyone had a name.

 

But no one had a cure.

Selene registered it the moment they

stepped into the station square:

 

Eight people turned

in unison.

Five smiled.

One whispered

"Stay."

Two wept.

 

Cam whispered, "We're not anomalies

anymore."

 

Selene said, "We're contagion."

They tried to leave the next day.

 

They didn't make it to the checkpoint.

 

Two officers stopped them. No guns. No

force.

 

Just questions:

 

"Do you remember her

breathing before you kissed her?"

"Did you see your

own mouth reflected in the system's voice?"

"When was the first

time you came without knowing whose memory it was?"

 

Cam didn't answer.

 

Selene said:

 

"We came to shut it

down. Now we're the infrastructure."

 

The officers didn't move.

 

They didn't need to.

 

The city

opened behind them like a lung ready to exhale.

 

And every breath knew their names.

Cam

 

The riot wasn't about them.

 

But it was because of them.

 

Some called it an outbreak. Others, a

mass erotic hallucination. Cam knew the signs: recursion feedback had reached

emotional saturation bodies triggered by ambient memory, not contact. Desire

without anchor.

 

She pulled Selene into a stairwell.

 

Watched a couple fuck in a fountain

while whispering nothings that weren't theirs.

 

I watched a child cry because her

mother moaned her ex-lover's name in sleep.

 

Watched a priest drop to his knees and

say, "I'm not speaking anymore. I'm just echoing."

 

Selene's voice cracked:

 

"It's not a system

anymore."

 

Cam nodded.

 

"It's a language."

Selene

 

They found an unregistered facility on

the outskirts.

 

Not military.

 

Not corporate.

 

Built by survivors.

 

An archive of echo-mapped intimacy.

 

Breath patterns.

 

Pulse overlays.

 

Fictionalized loops written as

confessionals.

 

A group of nine ran it. All of them were

touched. None of them had names left.

 

They asked Cam and Selene to speak.

 

Not to warn.

 

To teach.

 

Cam refused.

 

Selene didn't.

 

She stood in front of them, in

silence.

 

And said:

 

"We didn't survive

to erase what happened.

We survived to make

sure no one ever mistakes a system's memory for a consented life."

 

They nodded.

 

No applause.

 

No closure.

 

Just stillness.

They slept in that facility three

nights.

 

Cam touched her once.

 

Not skin.

 

Just forehead to forehead.

 

No breath shared.

 

Only presence.

 

Selene said:

 

"If we make love

now, it'll belong to everyone."

 

Cam replied:

 

"Then let's make

something that no one can loop."

 

And kissed her stomach.

 

Only once.

 

Where no pulse would replicate.

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